liliaeth: (R exhume)
I’m having a hard time to keep liking Sam, and that’s a hard thing to say about a character you used to love.


I’ve been struggling with this for all of s8, the way he abandoned Dean to Purgatory, and then his attitude all year. Self righteous, selfish, acting pissed off whenever Dean called him out on it. And basically threatening Dean into silence by pretending he’d just leave him again if Dean wasn’t suitably chastised enough.


I’ll freely admit I’m a Dean girl, I tried connecting to Sam from the start, but somehow, it just never worked. I mean, I may be a nerd, but that doesn’t mean that characters like Chloe (Smallville), Stiles (Teen Wolf) or Willow (btvs) have to appeal to me. Quite the contrary.

In reality, Dean’s more of a nerd than Sam is, Sam’s just more open about the book stuff, whereas Dean is the geek who’s hiding his love for all things nerdy*g*.

Sam might have the long hair, but Dean is the one more involved with stereotypical girly things, no matter how much he likes to put on the facade of being all ‘manly’. I think it’s his similarity to Spike that made me fall for the character.

And yet despite that, for seven seasons, I was only a step away from being bi bro. Dean might have been my fave, but Sam was right there on second place. (yes a girl can love both brothers and not be into wincest)

It’s just that this season, season eight, he just didn’t feel like Sam to me. It’s like he no longer cared about Dean. And the more the show tried to tell me how great Sam was, the more I started to dislike him. (the same kinda happened to me with Angel on his own show. the more you tell me how great a character is, the lower my tolerance of them tends to get, especially when those claims of their greatness and their actions onscreen don’t match up. )


I know they started trying to make Sam more likable again in the second half of s8, but somehow it felt too little too late. Especially since he still never apologized for his attitude at the start of the season. Whereas Dean was made to apologize to him over and over and over.

And what annoyed me most is that that attitude, the way he behaved matched the way Sam is often described by Sam bashers and I hate to see people like that proven right in any way whatsoever. Because that selfish, immature, manipulative little boy that the show gave us this season is NOT the Sam I came to love in the first seven years of the show.

Thanks to that, Sam has dropped down on my favorite SPN characters list. And that should never have happened.

Sam used to be on number two, but he’s fallen so low that right now it reads:

Dean
Victor Henriksen
Benny
Charlie
Kevin
Ruby
Castiel
Sam

See the problem here? Sam should never be that low, but unless they give him a major attitude adjustment in s9, I’m terrified it’s going to stay that way. And I really really don’t want that.


I want to love Sam, even just for Dean’s sake. Just like I wanted to love Dawn on BTVS for Spike and Buffy’s sake.Just like I love the Impala because Dean loves her.

And I can’t even find fanfic to help me bring back my love for Sam, because most Sam fans have only been writing ‘oh Sam really was suffering and it wasn’t his fault’ fic, instead of ‘Sam realizes what he did wrong and makes up for it’ fics that I need to read to get over these feelings…
liliaeth: (no you didn't)
Just to warn people, but this is yet another silly rant that's really about nothing important.*g*

One thing I notice reading the prompts at the kink meme is that well... I just find it hard to get into a prompt, or a fill for that matter, when Jared or Sam are put in the position of bottom or sub or slave.

Now admittedly, part of that is because I'm not attracted to Jared. Sorry, he has a nice body, but I just don't find his face all that attractive. (I may have mentioned this before*g*) But worse than that, he doesn't hold my emotional interest.

Just because I find a character unattractive won't always stop me from writing from their pov, or finding them fascinating. But even though I like Sam well enough, I just have little interest in reading stories with him as the main character. Add to that, that most people have the habit of going on about how attractive the submissive character is, which well... pulls me out of the story pretty quickly when said character is someone I'm not all that attracted to.

And really, I can buy 'Handsome' when applied to Jared, he's not my type, but I'm not blind, but when you want me to believe that he's supposed to be 'pretty', and not just the younger version of him, then you really are challenging my suspension of disbelief.

It's shallow really, but when I read a slash fic, who is on the bottom tends to depend on three things, for whom is it most in character (which should actually be the most important bit), which character am I most emotionally connected to. In supernatural that's Dean and in extension, Jensen. and third, (hides in shame) which one is smaller and prettier, which once again, Jensen

The big problem with RPS though is that there is no personalities to build on, or to judge a preference from the character on. And connection with the character depends on the individual fic and how they're written. So all there is, is looks. Meaning that lookwise, I'll always prefer Jensen as sub/bottom/slave.

Guess I know what that says about my personal preferences*g*, which is silly, because if there's women involved in the fic, I always without exception want them to be either dominant and/or on top. Which probably explains why Buffy/Spike is still my OTP, even years after the show's ended.
liliaeth: (Default)
Despite what people might believe, I'm not the kind of person to ship easy. I can often see chars in several relationships, with a few exceptions. One of those is Buffy/Spike, up to a point where I can't see Buffy with anyone other than Spike (mostly due to how Buffy was written in s6 and s7). I could give you a long list of why this is, but this rant isn't about spuffy for a change, so let's not*g*.

There's no worse fate for a character than to be the designated love interest )
liliaeth: (Default)
Despite what people might believe, I'm not the kind of person to ship easy. I can often see chars in several relationships, with a few exceptions. One of those is Buffy/Spike, up to a point where I can't see Buffy with anyone other than Spike (mostly due to how Buffy was written in s6 and s7). I could give you a long list of why this is, but this rant isn't about spuffy for a change, so let's not*g*.

There's no worse fate for a character than to be the designated love interest )

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